A M E L I A

My hands grab Aksh’s in a firm grip, shaking slightly as we near the research centre. Adrian is driving while Aadya is sitting beside him. Aksh and I are in the backseat and the others are following behind us. Everyone including Arhaan, Isha, Reva, Nicolas, Mrs and Mr Sharma are coming with us to see him off before he is taken under observation.

My nervousness is peaking as we cover more distance and I don’t know how to process this feeling. Just yesterday I got married to this man and today I have to let go of him for two weeks with the fear that he might never come back to me. I know.. I know I should think positive but when your husband’s test reports scream danger and he is suffering from a rare illness, the positivity doesn’t really last long.

I gulp the bad feeling down my throat and start chanting positive affirmations in my mind. Sending positive energy into the universe might bring me some positivity, or at least that’s what I’m hoping for. 

“It’s gonna be alright, angel.” Aksh whispers softly to me, as if sensing my fears without me having to voice them out loud. 

I turn to look at him and suddenly my eyes go teary. Ever since I heard what happened to him two years ago, I’ve not been able to forgive myself. I was so selfish to have not chosen him which was so weird because he was- is- my world.